THE JOURNEY TO THE VISION

June 8 2015

My dreams are finally becoming a reality.  After many many years of giving up on what I thought was a “pipe dream” and finally walking away from everything that this world leads you to believe is what  “qualifies you to be someone”… I’ve finally realized who I am really in this world.  God literally pulled my life out of darkness and placed me in his light which is why I am so passionate about seeking and saving people who are lost, scared, stuck and crying out for help.  My dreams are becoming my reality and it’s happening so fast. Sometimes I feel like I haven’t had time to really step back and absorb the reality of “this is actually happening”.  When I do have a moment to think… I feel like I can’t take to much time to sit back and soak it in because I’m afraid it’s just a dream, and if I wake up…It’ll all end.

Why is it the things we dream of, hope for, and are born…we are so scared of?

My dream is to be the one who shows up in someone’s worst nightmare and puts a stop to it ALL!  To wake them up to loving arms full of compassion, make them a meal, take them to school or work and make sure they’re protected and that they have everything that they need in life to succeed at becoming who they’ve always dreamt to be.

Why am I scared to be living my dream?  Because in my dream I am the protector.  I am the one who speaks up for those who can’t speak for themselves.  In my dream I’m fight the monsters who are attacking the innocent who are stuck running in place trying to scream but nothing is coming out and no one hears them or sees them.  My dream is to walk into someone’s worst dream and save them.  To to this I have to fight the enemy…..and sometimes it seems impossible.

Then I wake up and realize that God gave me this dream!

God said that he’d pour out his spirit on ALL people.  His sons and daughters will prophecy, old men will dream dreams, and young men will see visions.

So this dream that God gave me has become my vision and now my reality.  With this vision I march forward.  My God is a BIG GOD and with Him he makes ALL things possible which makes my dreams and visions unstoppable.

So when you ask me “Holly, why are you building a Dream Center SO BIG?”.

My answer is “WAKE UP!!! There is no dream that God gives you that is to big”!

I ask you …. WHAT’S YOUR DREAM?

What’s holding you back when you know Gods got your back?

It’s time to WAKE UP AND DREAM OUT LOUD!

DREAM BIG!

1 Peter 2:9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.  Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, nut now you have received mercy.

Matthew 19:26  Jesus looked at them and said “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible”.

Joshua 1:5  “No one will be able to stand against you all the days of your life.  As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you.  Be strong and courageous, beause you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their ancestors to give them”.  

May  2015

I want to say a special THANK YOU to all of you who have supported me in the raising of $3000!  I was able to go out to LA Dream Center as well as Phoenix Dream Center for training/shadowing in Human Trafficking (rescue and recovery), met with leaders of specific departments, hands on training in Community Outreach, Foster Care, Christ based drug and alcohol rehabilitation and more. ALL OF THESE THINGS WERE CRUCIAL for the planting of The Dream Center in Houston, TX.

Thank u for your friendship and support, It ALL means so much to me, this ministry and our generation!!

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NOVEMBER 2014

When I left Tulsa in May 2014 and moved to Arlington, TX to begin my Internship at The Prayer Room I would have never been able to predict all of the amazing things that God has done in my life and in this ministry in less than 6 months.

When I moved to Arlington, I had previously sold everything that I owned as well as gave away a vast majority of my belongings to follow after the vision that God placed in my heart 13 years ago; to plant a 24/7 House of Prayer and Worship open to the public coupled with a center for foster children, abandoned mothers, rescue and recovery for sex trafficking victims, Christ-based drug and alcohol rehabilitation and an event center. The Event center is so important because I believe there is raw, untapped talent all over the world in every community. My passion and plan is to create a Christ-based center where anyone can come and perform music, dance, art, whatever it may be, and expose/share their talent. This will be a place where trained leaders will help people identify their gifts and talents, to show them that God has them here for a purpose. Further teaching how to use those gifts to bless their generation; while raising up leaders who will awake and impart a continuum of the heartbeat of this ministry to their generation and the next.

When I moved to Arlington, I moved with two suitcases and that was it. I did not even have a vehicle or a way to get to school but I knew that God told me to come to school here so I trusted that he was going to take care of every detail big and small. To start with, God blessed me with an amazing family to live with while I’m here attending school. The family that I’m living with was actually sowing into The Prayer Room for some time before I even knew I would be attending school here! God is so amazing how he works things out when he has a vision and plans in mind. The family I live with are the ones who actually told me about the Prayer Room which was a total God thing because I had never heard of The Prayer Room, which come to find out The Prayer Room is tightly knit with IHOP. They have an internship here that is specific for Planting a House of Prayer and Worship. I am able to spend as much time as I possible can at The Prayer Room learning how it operates 18 hours a day, 7 days a week as well as attending my Internship. It amazes me how God knew that in moving to TX I would be away from my friends and family in Tulsa. He blessed me with an amazing family to live with here who love me and literally have my best interest at heart. They believe in what I’m doing and they support this ministry. I am so blessed and thankful to have them in my life!

Like I had said earlier, I moved to TX without a car. After much praying and waiting on God in regards to a vehicle, the Grandmother of the family that I live with pulled me aside and told me that she is so excited about what God is doing in my life and in this ministry that she gave me her car to use for the remainder of my Internship!! Praise GOD!!!! God always shows up on time and he is ALWAYS faithful!

My Internship is going great and I actually finish in December. I am currently on staff as the Base Operations Manager which means anything at The Prayer Room or the dorms that needs to be built, bought, maintained, fixed, replaced, etc I help make sure it gets done in a timely matter. There is a lot to be done here being that The Prayer Room is open to the public 18 hours a day 7 days a week. We have live worship and prayer 18 hours a day, Internship classes, Externs’ from IHOPU doing their externship here, music classes, conferences, prophetic classes, corporate prayer, etc. Everything has to run smoothly to make it all happen. Being on staff at The Prayer Room has been such an amazing experience and great honor. Everyone here has such a passion for God that it’s contagious, and they all feel like family. I’m so blessed and honored to be here serving in arms with this team of passionate people.

I have become involved at Eagle Mountain International Church while living here. God is so amazing how he has brought people into my life who have become my family at this Church. I feel at “home” when I’m there. I am so thankful for my Pastors and my Church family! I had the honor of working the Southwest Believers Conference in June/July, and also have become involved with the Young Adults Service “The Bridge”. Every Sunday I have been taking a class at Church called “Knowing God Intimately” taught by Pastors Danny and Judi Maclean. This class has taught me so much about my life with God, going deeper in who I am in God and who God is in me. Through taking this class I have begun to live my life on a different level of actually being “aware” that Christ is living in me, realizing that if the same spirit that raised Christ from the dead lives in me than I want my life to be radically lived for Christ! I highly recommend this class to everyone!

There have been many doors that God has opened for me in just the short amount of time that I’ve been living in Texas. In September I had the opportunity to attend and volunteer at The Elijah Rising conference in Houston for education in rescue and recovery of human sex trafficking victims all over the world and especially in Houston. I was able to attend classes for education and meet with people whose ministry and mission in life is to rescue and recover trafficked victims. I had a tour of Houston where I was able to see and learn about brothels, cantinas, strip clubs, etc. I learned that Houston is the number one for sex trafficking in America and is also the number one city for the most amount of churches in the US. There is a HUGE problem with this! This conference made such an impact on my life since I know that He has placed a mandate on my life to help rescue and recover sex trafficking victims. I learned so much that I didn’t know simply because I wasn’t educated. The news, church and people in general don’t like to talk about the brutal, real life, horrifying things that are happening all over the world and especially right in your town! This conference opened my eyes to a loud reality that our generation is crying out for help and we as a church and a people need to rise and take a stand against the slavery and brutality that is happening all over our world and stop ignoring it!! Ignoring things only allows enabling!

In October I was invited by Cross Prison Ministries to join them in a crusade at The Hobby Prison, which is a women’s maximum security prison. This was my first time ever doing prison ministry and I will honestly say that I did not know what all to expect when we got there. I had asked a few people that I knew who had been in prison as well as people who have done prison ministry….but I would have never expected what God had in store for us when we got there. To begin with we had such favor and peace with all the staff at the prison which was such a God thing. We had a hiccup with the musicians that were supposed to come with us and we were just going to play CD’s and play acoustic guitar. Come to find out the prison had a phenomenal Choir which ended up singing for the whole crusade. Every time the choir sang, there was such an anointing on their music that I could literally feel my soul sing.
I had been asked by Cross Prison Ministries to come along and close them out in prayer every day along with leading the call for salvation. I was asked on the first night to tell my testimony and before the leader asked me, the Lord had already told me that I would be giving my testimony. I was somewhat prepared, however I have never publicly given my testimony to 300-500 people before. I’ve spoken in classes, I’ve worked for several ministries (running things behind the scenes),I’ve prayed for people, but publicly speaking to 300-500 people was a whole new ball game for me. I was told I had five minutes to give my testimony, and I prayed out loud, “Lord, what part of my testimony do you want me to tell these women that will allow them to see you the way I do”? I knew that if they could just see Jesus the way I do and could get to know him the way that I do, they’d never be the same. Needless to say, my five minute testimony turned into a 45 minute testimony. I told the woman I had never spoken before and that I just wanted to be real with them. I didn’t want to sugar coat anything. I told them about how I grew up, some of the things that happened to me, some of the things that I chose to do that were wrong, and how God pulled me out of the mess that I had made and gave me a new life. I told them that I’m not perfect, I’m still a work in process but I don’t ever want to be perfect! If I’m perfect than I don’t need Jesus, and I ALWAYS want to need Jesus in my life! He’s my everything! I will absolutely say that I really don’t remember everything that I had said to them that night because I let the holy spirit lead me in everything that I said. I didn’t want them to see me and look to me for anything because it’s not about me, it’s about Jesus! I wanted everything I did and said to be of my Father. The women were laughing, crying and engaged. Through my raw honesty and being fully led by the holy spirit, you could feel the freedom, excitement and the anointing of God so heavily in that gym that at times I didn’t know if I was going to laugh, cry or fall to my knees! I’ve never experienced anything like that! It was absolutely amazing! God moved in such an amazing way within the next four days of ministering in the prison. Not only could you literally see God changing the women’s lives right before your eyes, but God was changing each one of our lives on the ministry team! We all saw God in a totally new way by just yielding the whole crusade to him and letting God do what he wanted to do. When I led the call for salvation, I felt the Lord tell me to lead it in a way that you don’t hear in our culture that often. I told the women that I could tell them all to bow their heads and close their eyes and in one, two, three, if you’d like to give your life to Jesus then lift up your hand and slip it back down real fast so you don’t have to worry about anyone seeing you and become embarrassed. I didn’t feel led to lead a call for salvation that way. I told them that the word of God tells us to come BOLDLY to the throne of God. I know for a fact that God created me before my mother even knew I was going to exist. God loved me at my worst, dark, weakest moments, and he is always beckoning me to him. He loves me so much that he wants to wash away all of the past and make me a new creation so that he can begin to teach me how to become the woman who he has written books about me to be. Anyone who loves me that much, and promises to take care of me, tells me that He has a plan for my life, He has thoughts for good and not for evil, and that I won’t be disappointed…. then I am not ever going to be embarrassed to give my life to someone like that! I told the women if they were sick of living their lives empty, broken, lonely, carrying baggage and never feeling worthy then to boldly raise both hands and repeat after me!! Almost every woman’s hand went up every night! I then led them in the call for salvation and told them what it means to be “saved”. The next few nights I had the honor of being able to speak during the crusade. I spent that time teaching them what God told me to. I educated them on how to pray, how to begin to read the bible, what happens after you become saved, who Jesus really is and who they are in Jesus. I spoke on the armor of God, told them about the covenant they are now adopted into and that this world is not our home. We will dwell with God for an eternity and you are now filled with the Holy Spirit which is the same spirit that raised Christ Jesus from the dead and Holy Spirit will lead and guide your life every step of the way.
While I’m sitting here typing this… I’m having a hard time putting into words the absolute hunger, love and passion for God these women had. God showed up right there with us. There was unity and even those who weren’t sure about this “God stuff”, the Lord softened their hearts and they came up to the team every night after service asking for prayer. It was amazing! Every speaker brought an amazing message that God had just given them right when we walked in. It seemed that every night God changed things up. God knew every step it would take to get them to see him, hear him, open up to him, and give their lives fully over to him simply because he loves them so much!
There were no fog machines, flashy lights, awesome sound systems, no cell phones or anything that our culture has become so accustomed to in church in our western civilization. All distractions were gone which allowed us all to focus on the one thing that we were all created for…God. It was just a bunch of woman hungering and thirsting after the heart of the Father…. and God showed up! After service, every evening it people weren’t talking about the awesome lights, new song, or anything like that….what was talked about by everyone was “look
After this amazing experience, anointing, and move of God, my life literally will never be the same! I am finding myself wanting that move of God that we all experienced in the prison to be apart of my life every day! I don’t want to go back to “normal” life anymore! I want more of GOD!

I am seeking the heart of God for direction on where he wants my life and this ministry to go from here. After what I experienced in the prison I feel an urgency like never before and I can literally feel and hear souls crying out for FREEDOM in our generation.

I believe that God is moving his people into position in this season. I know he is building a mighty army that will not be shaken or moved by this world or the things of it. Who are mighty in battle and strong in war! I see people who have once been a part of the things of this world, but God pulled them out of that, forgave them, turned their lives around, gave them hope and a future, set their souls on fire for Him and are now unstoppable for the Kingdom of God because they have experienced true FREEDOM, LOVE, MERCY and GRACE!
This army of people are NOT afraid to stand up and stand out for God! We are called to love God with all our heart, mind, soul and strength. Love our neighbor as ourselves…and reach and save that which is lost. God is on the move and he is preparing one of the biggest AWAKENINGS and Revival’s that the world has ever seen or experienced and I just can’t wait to be a part of that Army of God.

A special THANK YOU to all of my partners, family, and friends who pray for this ministry, financially support, and encourage me every day! I’m so happy to be in this army of God with each and every one of you.

-Holly Renken

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Psalm 20:7 (NIV) Some trust in chariots, and some in horses, but we trust in the name of the Lord our God.

2 Corinthians 4:7-12 (NIV) But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

Isaiah 38:15 (NIV) But what can I say? He has spoken to me, and he himself has done this. I will walk humbly all my years because of this anguish of my soul. Lord, by such things men live; and my spirit finds life in them too. You restored me to health and let me live. Surely it was for my benefit that I suffered such anguish. In your love you kept me from the pit of destruction; you have put all my sins behind your back. For the grave cannot praise you, death cannot sing your praise; those who go down to the pit cannot hope for your faithfulness. The living, the living-they praise you, as I am doing today, fathers tell their children about your faithfulness. The Lord will save me, and we will sing with stringed instruments all the days of our lives in the temple of the Lord.

Isaiah 52 (NIV) Awake, awake, O Zion, clothe yourself with strength. Put on your garments of splendor, O Jerusalem, the holy city. The uncircumcised and defiled will not enter you again. Shake off your dust, rise up, sit enthroned. O Jerusalem. Free yourself from the chains on your neck, O captive Daughter of Zion. For this is what the Lord says: “You were sold for nothing, and without money you will be redeemed.: For this is what the Sovereign Lord says: “At first my people went down to Egypt to live; lately, Assyria has oppressed them. And now what do I have here?” declares the Lord. “For my people have been taken away for nothing, and those who rule them mock,” declares the Lord. “All day long my name is constantly blasphemed. Therefore my people will know my name; therefore in that day they will know that it is I who foretold it. Yes, it is I.” How beautiful on the mountains are the feet of those who bring good news, who proclaim peace, who bring good tidings, who proclaim salvation, who say to Zion, “Your God reigns!” Listen! Your watchmen lift up their voices, together they shout for joy. When the Lord returns to Zion, they will see it with their own eyes. Burst into songs of joy together, you ruins of Jerusalem, for the Lord has comforted his people, he has redeemed Jerusalem. The Lord will lay bare his holy arm in the sight of all the nations, and all the ends of the earth will see the salvation of our God. Depart, depart, go out from there! Touch no unclean thing! Come out from it and be pure, you who carry vessels of the Lord. But you will not leave in haste or go in flight; for the Lord will go before you, the God of Israel will be your rear guard.

Isaiah 58:9 (NIV) Then you will call, and the Lord will answer, you will cry for help, and he will say : Here I am. “If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk, and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and you night will become like the noonday. The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail. Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations; you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls, Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.

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